Goodbye Farrah!

Beauty and grace are fleeting and off they have flown. She is gone, but God showed a beautiful love story of a man who stood by her through the transformation of beauty into the eating away of the sickness of her body. The fire of cancer ate her up, but she was able with the love that stood by her to be comforted in this life, even when beauty was not as effulgent. Love is a gift from God and they showed that love, although not vowed to each other or to God, it was true and tried and tested and stood. They loved and showed and proved love and if you find a friend that will stand by you when you are in the ravages of pain, much less a lover, you are a blessed person. Most people say, smile the world smiles with you, cry and cry alone. The best of friends and intentions of vows is tried in such circumstances. Suck it up and keep your emotions to yourself, people think, if they don't say. When the terror of pain hits you, as with childbirth or cancer or other fearsome things and you say, I just cannot face this terror; God sends a person who can hold your hand and represent Him in the midst of the darkness and deepest night. He is there, but we can only see Him through a representative, sometimes. Love is the representative through pain. I don't know if the sin is in not vowing, or if the sin is in vowing and not paying the vow. I will be with you and trials come, and off they fly. I don't know if I can represent the truth of God's love with you. Lo and behold, I am given strength to stand up to the test, to some degree.
Love is there and when you hold onto it the darkness doesn't seem so large and the pain doesn't seem so deep and the cavern of falling doesn't seem so ominous. God is bigger, I can see love. I can't see God, because He seems shadowed by pain and fear. That is what we aim for. To be present to the moment. True to the situation. Faithful in the fearsome pestilence that threaten our souls. Holding on and representing the love that God has given us the flag to uphold. Model and show that, that is more beautiful than any form or figure on earth.
I think that Farrah was a model in life and form and in death and love.


But, it is better not to have vowed than to vow and not to pay.